Monday, September 19, 2005
had this urge to blog.ITP commenced today. bleahs. everything seems to be going smoothly. but i've nuthing to do seriously. other than picking up calls. owells, and i've to learn about all the packages details. which i totally have no interest in eu see. but overall, nice environment, nice boss.. hopefully can clinch afew deals.(:had dinner with sy and est. hopefully est is feeling better. the love between them is so so strong.maybee NS afterall is not a bad thang. the rltshp between me and azhar grew so much better that i've never expected. the love is getting stronger each day. he have learnt to compromise, and he is becoming more liek a man. thou there'll be times when he's really tired and feeling lazy, on a whole i knoe he's trying his best to be a nice gentleman to me. which make me feel so proud of him. yes, his ego is still there, and i believe will be forever there? however the thing that make me so shock is that he no longer take this rltshp fer granted. he cherish it and everything. and all these make me cry - tears of happiness i believe.every night he will say me misses me. he never once use these kinda honey words on me. but he did it recently. how amazing. i love the way he is now. but there'll be tymes where i will liek think, "Is this really my boyfriend? is he really the one who used to be so crude and unloving?" Haha. most of the time i've to convince myself that ya!, he's still that reggae hiphop freak i've known 1.5years ago at the Hendrix bar. wearing the Lost blue cap, with the stussy belt and stussy yellow top. dancing around with his friend's jacket liek a crazy man to attract my attention.(: everything single detail of our past is still alive in my mind.ok, if eu find the whole chunk above is mushy, then don read it. click that X red box icon on the top right hand corner of ure webpage. i jez wanna wryte out so next tyme i can read back.gotta ged back in bed.ciao.missing baby sweetheart darling pie love.
the blue mess.;
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