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The Exits

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back from work and supper at amk was damn guilty yet fufilling. got so many runaway bills ese days, making everyone so sick and all. jez hope everyone can jez be abit more honest la. angmos somemore.. bleahs.

oh yes, and i'm gonna do sth to myself. a tattoo or a piercing. yes, i need a drastic change. alex says at the spine is cool, but its painful. and i dont rly fancy. any ideas friend? and of cos a haircut. depicts a new relationship, a dead old flame.

i love my life now.
im perfectly fine.

the blue mess.;
1:37 AM;

Sunday, February 19, 2006

i will miss you. bye sweets.

now he says lets jez be friends.
liek wtf.

he wants me to jez be a doll stupidly waiting fer me
and now he dumped me aside cos i'm old and haggard

you may say i'm dumb i'm emotional
i don't give a damn
if chasing after the thing you deem important in ure lyf is a crime
then i rather be shot dead right at my forehead

two years..
and he jez killed me with his words
pierced through my heart
indeed its fatal
the old becky had passed away
and the new becky has jez resurrected

abit sadist. but that describe me.

one fine day, a nice gentleman came by.
he's everything i ever crave

all i need now is encouragements and blessings
happiness
is all i wanna ask for now

i never want to commit the same mistake i made
and get hurt the way i am now

i wish you all the best
forever loving you

the blue mess.;
11:06 AM;

Sunday, February 12, 2006

he said two to three months.

all i want is an understanding boyfriend.

please God. bring him back to me.

the blue mess.;
2:06 PM;

Thursday, February 09, 2006

i miss my boyfriend

the blue mess.;
4:14 PM;

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

i'm happier now. but i feel emptier.

our story ended.
thats truly our last episode.
as much as i don't want to, but i have to.

without trust and hope, how can there be love? how can we contd if there's no love?

my heart aches.
but who can mend it for me?

the blue mess.;
4:04 AM;

Sunday, February 05, 2006

what is happening to me? heart is in different pieces. belonging to different objects. hurts flying here and there. tears flowing in a non-stop mode. everything seems so funny. is this our last episode?

that night was fun at phuture. (:

should i or shouldn't i? i've hold on for so long, should i jez let it go like that?

i love you,
but can you give me a chance to love you more?

the blue mess.;
2:52 PM;

Friday, February 03, 2006

i will be lying to myself if i say : sy, im nort at all affected by what you said that night.

but i will kidding if i say : yes, i'm so so upset over it la.

because i myself have no idea what is really bothering inside me. probably its school work. you knoe, exams, tests, projects.. it could be that factor that makes you feel uncomfortable, uneasy and worst, self-worthless. maybe i knoe that reason in me, jez that i cant describe out. mm, owells.. life sucks isnt it?

the pang of guilt, the gush of agony.. i dno. i jez wish to shake them off. never will i wish to get involved in such dillema, neither will i want another crush like this. you ask me is it painful? well, definite NO. liek c'mon, i'm nort feeling any pain.

ok ok, i admit. maybe another night of drowning myself with Barcardi Coke will be nice after all. =/

adopted from Yan's msn nick
Expect the Worst/Cos 'She's A Tourist' - rather nice i thought. quite rhyme and it seems to mean something, doesnt it?

quoted from Siyin's convers with me
She always got someone to clean up her own shit - wahaha. so lame.

chinablack on the 27th, phuture on the 30th and 1st. what a wonderful night life. oh and chinablack was fun. it was fun shaking the booties with the gerls. and of cos, my dear ashley. the very very skinny bamboo love. oh boy, how i regreted not going DXO that night la. the black shirt with a middle red star. (:


oh and dinner with my guppies is cool. fish and co at Love. damn nice cans. thou it is ex, but it was splendid. and syl, you didnt finish ure Tartar sauce in the end.. ohwells. after Fish n Co's party was great too. thou faith went off earlier=(

you didnt miss out anything, cos there's Zero cute guys in phuture that wed. mind you, zero. bitchy gerls have la, you want ryte lizhen? wahaha. joking.

three cheers to singlehood. hip-hip Hurray! hip-hip Hurrayyy! hip-hip Hurraayyyyy!!

the blue mess.;
1:12 PM;