Thursday, August 18, 2005
imma so tired. i nidda long long break from all work and school. everything jez don appeal to me, especially when im having this bad flu and cough. so stucked up in my nostrils. Damn!was actually supposed to go Home tonight. Esther din wanna go in the end. So we cancelled. I overslept too. In da end she called me saying she's going Zouk. I'm liek.... what? owells, boyfriend is the most impt laa. So as long as she's happy, her bf's happy.. thats very good. but im nort happy. cos my friend Yan, he tout im still going. so he waited fer me. and in the end he has to take cab home. Seriously imma so paiseh now. dno how to face him in future. nobody's at fault. fine. whatever.missed azhar liek crazy. are guys all liek that? easy to give up, easy to take up. liek seriously what's wrong with their brains and hearts laa. are girls really jez whores in their eyes? whereby they can jez pick up one with their filthy money, then ditched us with their fcuking senseless reasons after taking advantage of us. i find it so damn lame laa. K, at least aza isnt this kinda guy. Apparently, according to him he still wanna da relationship, jez that he nidd a break. another lame excuse. but owells. i jez obliged.sometimes gerls can be so so foolish and stupid kno. don mind gedding cheated and dumped by the same guy over and over again. Yet can still patch things up and continue the relationship as per normal. sometymes really i jez cant understand why we gerls can be jez so tolerating and have this thing in us that allow us to ged bullied by guys that seriously sucks. we knoe that being with them gives us no future, but we are willing to walk this sickening journey with them. i guess that is call Love. something only couples in love understand.had prata with alort of my frens jez now. so lazy to list down all. nice get-together laa.so proud of myself and felicia. we finally completed Ec. so now is to trying to decorate our webby into a nicer one.. yeah. everything is falling into places.(:nidda haircut soon. bill jez came. it sucks can. din pay my last mth bill. hahhaha. i hate accumulated bill. it jez scares u.oryteee. nidda slp. wanna ged everything outta my brain.
the blue mess.;
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