Thursday, February 24, 2005
imma starting to hate everyone. dey jez geds on my nerves dno wadds wrong with me these days but people seems to be provoking me in one way or another. or probably imma too stressed with the school werk. and well, the only tyme i feel happy, relieved, relaxed is when imma with my friends, baby or my family.
apparently i haven had a great week. with most of my blood vessels popping out sooner or later. but seriously cant think of a gudd way to release my anger. tell my fwends?? no. no one can be trusted rmb? scold other ppl?? no. its so stupid. ruin all ure reputations. shout and cry liek nobody's business?? of cos nort. ppl will soon run away from me. and i'll be a lonely soul ever after again.
no one is perfect by nature. Jesus died fer us so that we can survive and stay on Earth to finish the werk Jesus planned fer us. i tried to accept ppl. but my own philosopy kept me away. i dno wad imma trying to bring forth but recently its jez nort me. i have an inner urge to beat someone up, to yell at someone, to scold someone, to splurge monee on somethings..... im becoming inhumane. )):
i have been eating my ice cream daily, ever since that feeling empowered me. i dunch kno how to escape from it. i can only lost myself in the numbness of my gums, slowly my limbs will too become numb... and start to feel that everything has change. imma nort sadist afterall. however, when the ice cream melts, i'm back to the same me. the one full of anger, bitterness and the urge to retaliate.
skwel sucks fer me still. everyday is the same. babyy started werking. exams coming. projects' deadlines are approaching.
the truth now is, i hate school. i wish i donch nidd to study anymore. yet i can still find a gudd paying job. i hate studyingg. i need a gud facial, a gud spa.. and of cos a gud massage.
the blue mess.;
6:28 PM;