BLUEmess!!!

Friday, December 30, 2005

what kind of hole am i digging myself into?

i'm totally disgusted and disappointed with myself.
very. very.

the blue mess.;
8:01 AM;

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

maybe its jez me, and not you.

wouldn't it be nice if its jez the both of us.?

probably i seriously need a brainwash.

i am totally wasted.

the blue mess.;
3:45 PM;

Thursday, December 22, 2005

my whole body feels numb. i feel so empty. i want to escape from this world, this reality. how i wish i can get high drunk every night, hitting cool clubs and preying on new prettyfaces.. i wud love to lead a lyf liek this, better than hearing constant nagging and complaining at home. i had enuff, and i yearn to get out of these. all these heated arguments are getting on my nerves. i can foresee a break down soon. maybe i need a holiday. a long long break from home.

hearing people talking about australia, sydney, perth, melbourne 's stories, are all making me excited, wanting to see the world soon. i wud love to study in melbourne, or maybe emigrate ere' for long. deep inside of me, this probably is the freedom im yearning to achieve in the long run. but how can i really really achieve that? yes, i nidd loads of money. i nidd a bursary.

i love my friends. had a wonderful xmas dinner ystd at fel's place. drinking red wine, talking rubbish, exchanging presents. after that, a post party at zouk. Zouk was amazing. except from the fact that it is blardy blardy crowded. i hate the crowd ere man. but i love their songs and grooves. hrmm, but i prefer MOS more. it was even spectacular when i.. chanced upon this man. he totally lite up my night. oh ya, and i saw my ritz fwends ere. cool place with the right people, thats all i wanted.

my xmas wishlist is damn blardy long. im wishing fer alort alort of stuffs, i wonder this yr any prettyboy Santa will grant me my wishes. 3 days away from xmas, and ive yet got my best buds any stuffs. but still im looking ferward fer that dinner zhen promised to arrange. im waiting fer ure confirmation ger.

wanted to werk fer this jeans, and give it to babyboy fer xmas. but bistro pay ive yet to receive, so xmas gift fer babyboy is abit challenging. i cudnt ged myself nice tops and heels too. im sad too.

i love guys to take this initiative to shove a lighter towards any lady, wanting to lend her a light. eu knoe exactly wad i mean? i knoe my describtive english is damn bad, ok siyin, don say abt my english anymore cans. i knoe im lousy la. bleahs. ok back to the light topic. i love the picture whereby eg. i wanna smoke, and im actually searching fer my lighter, so coincident that there's this guy( could be a fren or stranger) was near me, and he initiatied to take out his lighter before im able to find it, and light it up fer me. i think its really an act of gentleman. and its liek, i feel that there's mutual interest in the atmosphere when he borrowed a lady his light. i love that kinda feeling.

the blue mess.;
9:37 PM;

Sunday, December 18, 2005

love xmas season la. the atmosphere and all. presents, turkeys and bacon cheese. goodness. yummy. 3 days away from my xmas dinner with my girls. am i not excited!

2 days passed jez liek that. nuthing's done. accompany sweetie to study fer his upcoming test tdy at jurong east. ok, i brought my hRM notes. studied awhile with him, then i went to sleep. ha. nice slp thou. slping besyd sweety is always a peaceful one.

went town met up with siyin. she bought nice stuffs fer her cousins la. why am i nort her cousin? anw dear sy, i rly donch mind that guess wallet.. hee. anyhoos.

zhen's hammie passed away. i feel so sad too. i hate all these living and dying, laughing and sobbing. damn.

i wanna catch King Kong.

i nidd to stop drinking. beer belly is out.

the blue mess.;
11:48 PM;

Friday, December 16, 2005

What Breed of Dog Are You?

Becky, you're a Chihuahua!

No bones about it, you're an energetic, devoted Chihuahua. For your breed, size definitely doesn't matter. After all, sometimes the best things (diamonds, car keys, Godiva truffles) come in small packages. Honest and straightforward, you're never afraid to speak up for what you believe in, especially if it's a cause near and dear to your heart. Having such a passionate personality can come with a few drawbacks, though. You can be moody at times, and people often find it hard to live up to your high standards. But once you make a friend, it's for life. Saucy and intense, your energy and unfailing loyalty make you a great companion. Woof!

i love mos - Ministry Of Sound

one word- SpEctaCulaR.

can you imagine inside a club, 2 storey high, with escalator, not stairs mind you. i so love that place la.

it jez make me high.

the blue mess.;
12:23 PM;

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

i hate projects. seriously i do. and where have you been these days?

i am going KL in two weeks' time. i love it.(:

the blue mess.;
12:31 AM;

Saturday, December 10, 2005

boy, i had yong tau foo, linguine arrabiatta, ho fun today. thats fcuking alort. and imma so guilty. but im so hungry laa. i dno why. a worm? maybe..oh, i bought new slippers. nothing's new, that birkens kind. always wanted to gedd.

sometimes its ironic thou, i don liek people to steal my style, my favourites, my acts, my dos and donts. yet most of the times, i judge people and get jealous of them, yearning for things they have. sighs. maybee its time to change my character. dont always follow people, try something special, new. be the one to start that trend, people will be envious of me for who i am personally.

i dno, my previous para seems so chim. its jez my another random post. i love doing sth funny. cos it makes people laugh. hang out with my secondary school fwends this afternoon. the feelings are good. knoe, seeing em agn, knoeing they're gg NS.. can joke. and ive this sudden urge of getting sweets lingeries. my god. i love being sexy.

i nidd new wallet. i wish whoever is my angel can ged me a wallet fer my christmas.

how i love dancing. i love clubs. man oh man dear. i love dirty dancing.

but first of all, i need to lose those kilos. 5 more kgs to go. perfection(:

so many wants.:/ moneyy i love.

the blue mess.;
8:42 AM;

i need a break from Singapore. from all the facets of life im facing now. its all getting heavier. skwel is getting boring. i felt my usual adrenaline is fading rapidly, werk is making my eyes swollen. groups of friends coming in and out of my life.. gimme a break will u this ass?

shall i go genting? or KL? hrmm, or maybe.. maybe not.

the blue mess.;
8:42 AM;

Thursday, December 08, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA LOY !!! I LOVE YOU.

prissy, my hp down. cant msg u, so i confessed my love for u here in my blog alryte? had a gr8 birthday this year? tell me all about it k.

im depriving of sleep. seriously. i need a long long deep deep sleep.

oh ya, and did i mention? i enjoyed every single part of yesterday. i missed every little details of yesterday.

boy oh boy.

the blue mess.;
10:59 AM;

Monday, December 05, 2005

feels good back in blogging life. yea, of cos i have sth to share. i dno, sth personal i feel. but i nidda a space to let it go. this maybe a good place?

im sad, bistro is closing. the fwends ive made there.. i mean, i rly like them. i can joke with them and all. i love working there, thou pay is late in general. its jez that i don wan to leave the people ere.

im nort a slut, neither am i a fcuking whore. i like meeting new people. making new relationships with people around me. having some drinking/dancing sessions.. i don see it as a sin having flings.

knoe, i jez have this unfaithful feelings in me now. not jez now, for past 1 month? i dno. maybe ive been losing touch with jakpeng. and maybe ive gaining more contact with other people i knoe of. so ive sort of start this "wanting-to-keep-a-newboy" kinda feelings. i knoe its so muthufcuking of me, but i started to miss this someone. we've jez met, and he's leaving soon.

indeed, we've jez met, and he's leaving. leaving me.
i enjoyed being around him. thats my point.

the blue mess.;
10:37 PM;