BLUEmess!!!

Friday, September 30, 2005

came online to charge my ipod. its so boring to see no one online in msn on a friday night. becos eu knoe that all ure fwens are having fun outside and here you are, at home doing nuthing. and how bitter my lyfe can ged.. had maggi fer dinner?!!? thats so sad isnt it? but anyhoos, i knoe im still enjoying my lyfe la.

werk at Seiki wasnt as bad as i felt at first. its alryte now thou. cos people start calling in, geding busier at marina square. i thought its quite fun when its geds busy. siyin still find it boring. ha(: agree with felicia that we'll surely gain lil weight after these whole 6 weeks thingy. everyday in da office jez eat n type. no lyfe, and fattening. imagine that lil tummy is cumming out!! fcuk. must exercise.. please. but so lazyy. alamak. so i resort to nort going fer my lunch break. haha. ultimate solution.

sat is tmr. yeah. im meeting azhar. cant wait cans. dno what we gna do but im sure we'll be so happies.

we've been bitching about the uncle in my office. hahahha. cant stop laughing and joking about him. owells.

have been craving fer supper these days. damn guilty.

the blue mess.;
11:13 PM;

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

work sucks as per normal. and i'm in charge of this poster project. i tout attachment should be interesting and simple? it doesn't seems this way now.

lucky siyin came marina today. if not i will be bored to death. tmr will be a total living hell. im gonna be alone in that blardy office for 8 hours. and, eating lunch alone? how cruel can that be?

baby is nice as usual. everything is sweetness now.(: except for work. and weekends' shift. fcuk itp.

ciao.

the blue mess.;
11:45 PM;

Monday, September 19, 2005

had this urge to blog.

ITP commenced today. bleahs. everything seems to be going smoothly. but i've nuthing to do seriously. other than picking up calls. owells, and i've to learn about all the packages details. which i totally have no interest in eu see. but overall, nice environment, nice boss.. hopefully can clinch afew deals.(:

had dinner with sy and est. hopefully est is feeling better. the love between them is so so strong.

maybee NS afterall is not a bad thang. the rltshp between me and azhar grew so much better that i've never expected. the love is getting stronger each day. he have learnt to compromise, and he is becoming more liek a man. thou there'll be times when he's really tired and feeling lazy, on a whole i knoe he's trying his best to be a nice gentleman to me. which make me feel so proud of him. yes, his ego is still there, and i believe will be forever there? however the thing that make me so shock is that he no longer take this rltshp fer granted. he cherish it and everything. and all these make me cry - tears of happiness i believe.

every night he will say me misses me. he never once use these kinda honey words on me. but he did it recently. how amazing. i love the way he is now. but there'll be tymes where i will liek think, "Is this really my boyfriend? is he really the one who used to be so crude and unloving?" Haha. most of the time i've to convince myself that ya!, he's still that reggae hiphop freak i've known 1.5years ago at the Hendrix bar. wearing the Lost blue cap, with the stussy belt and stussy yellow top. dancing around with his friend's jacket liek a crazy man to attract my attention.(: everything single detail of our past is still alive in my mind.

ok, if eu find the whole chunk above is mushy, then don read it. click that X red box icon on the top right hand corner of ure webpage. i jez wanna wryte out so next tyme i can read back.

gotta ged back in bed.ciao.
missing baby sweetheart darling pie love.

the blue mess.;
11:41 PM;

Friday, September 16, 2005

its a Friday. but i am not at all happy. my pay has been delayed further. my body is not functioning well. the feeling of bloatness is back. the only thing im looking forward, which is motivating me to stay cool is that Sweetie is outta camp for the weekend. and he's meeting me!

hmm, that's a good motivator. the fact that he has to go back to that ghastly place on Sunday nite makes me wanna cherish our weekends even more. he said he heard noises while he's sleeping. now that's abit freaky.

exams offically over. sem 1 of yr2 was already history. that's sth to celebrate abt. poor me, still trapped at hme. miss the orchard streets.. especially when a big group of Ngee Ann students are heading to Indochine fer some boggie nite later. how i yearn to go too. if only im rich. owells. (:

after the weekends, attachment gonna start. im starting to lose grip of time. so many things to do.. so lil time and money. really. 4 oct going for my basic theory. liek yay. wanna use this holidays' tyme to really catch up with my old frens i've yet to see maybe liek months?. make some tym fer me ladies.

gotta logged off soon. nose is driping liek fast tap. exams have been a flunk for the past week. im jez praying fer the best. and at the same tyme, anticipating the worst.

takkaire. god bless.
ciao

the blue mess.;
7:56 PM;

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

finally i've got the time to blogg. cos tmr ere isn't any paper. liek finally.. so today is a resting day.(: hees.

went town-ing with esther jez now after our ief and fit paper. Hmm, i wouldn't dare to say the paper is easy. but i wish at least i pass ief. AAA is jez a flop laa. Don't wanna wish to talk about it. Cos its badd. very badd. i swear man, this semester is a damn disastrous sem of all. I pray hard i don ged to repeat any modules. And, if lucky lucky i pass everything, i promise i'll work harder next sem. i really do promise laa.

had fun eating my ban mian. i finished it all! man, eu cant imagine how hungry i was cans. my stomach growls in the middle of the paper, and yes, i heard it all. Damn nice. (: nicest ban mian, but qiulian ban mian still rules. yeah yeah. head down to far east to survey the prices of rebonding. 120bucks for rebonding+haircut+treatment.. isn't that a great deal? she's gonna do it tmr. im excited. as well as she herself.

we kept chatting as we walked down the streets of town. wisma to taka.. to takopachi to lemonade.. yummy! greats chats we had. talk about relationships, futures. i find them interesting thou. we had fun trying tops and skirts in zara, topshop.. i come across this damn nice pair of heels. 125bucks. expensive, but its nicee cans. who is willing to buy fer me? confirm nort joji. he jez paid my bills fer me.

a couple of needs & wants right now in my mind.

a. Zara heels. 125
b. zara formal skirt. 49.90
c. Xccessories bag 34.90
or.. d. Far east bag 39.90
e. Baby-G watch 185
f. Gucci Shades NA
g. Tops&bottoms - yet to see any nicee ones.

yes, i really have so many wants. When can i ged em liek in one shot? wait long long lo.

couples of short-term liabilities too.

1. Jamie 7
2. Daddy 60
3. SzeSze 4

im so fcuking poor cans. Damnit. and i nidd ged my train concession on 19sept. Gotta wryte all these in my reality notebook. Online diary is to show off my liabilites. Bleahs.

sweetheart has gone into the palace of torture - National Service. But luckily he got into Civil Defence. so its not that bad. He doesn't need to go to Tekong training, which is something to celebrate about, and he can come out tmr alrdy!! cos its Civil Defence Day tmr. Happy Civil Defence Day bro! (:

been missing honey alot. thou its not something we've nvr tried before, but somehow the feeling is different. Its liek he's in jail or sth. Choi laa, but its rly sth liek part of me has gone away fer a holiday. Esther kno what i mean. cos we've been talking abt this topic since we board 77 jez now. ha.

tmr he is out. fri last paper. first sem over. finally. hurray. champagne!

coming up next, esther 19th birthday. baby chocs 20th birthday. excited...!!!

last paper om. hopefully will do much better than AAA and ief. boohoo. ciao.

the blue mess.;
11:03 PM;

Friday, September 09, 2005

im tired. keep yawning. but tmr is my marketing paper. liek what the fcuk ryte? dammnit.

going to meet siyin at chomp chomp later. To have coffee and study my marketing. hrmm, what should i drink later? mocha ice blended. k, set.

everyone has started studying. For ief, AAA, Om.. bleahs. i dno how am i going to pass ieF laa. the content of ieF seems so foreign to me. Hopefully can scrape thru la. Jez anyhow, pickaBoo..

shouldn't be blogging often these days. Most prob i will be acting Owl. Waking up in the wee hours to study. Yes.

ciao.

the blue mess.;
2:29 PM;

Sunday, September 04, 2005

saw faezah while waiting for sze's bro this afternoon at pasir ris downtown east. hee, so coincident laa. went fer sze's birthday party at downtown east ystd. stayover on the saturday nitex and went home in the afternoon. Wanted to visit foowen, but in the end, no one called. so... Sleep somemore!!!

Fun is the word to describe at the chalet. We bbq, eat, drink, smoke, play cai-quan, watch sun rise... Everything is so nicee. i really lurve the tyme we bbq. liek the closeness i felt among my frens is sucha sweet aroma laa. Really lurve the way we friends spend time together liek this..(:

Thanks Sze Sze for everything. I lurvee eu to bacon bits!!!!!! i wish that eu can always be happy. Stop worrying so much.(:

and meiwei is drunk! Wtf la. hahaha. But everything was under control laa. Thou we got abit siao, went to get Absolute Vodka from Cheers and had Screwdriver and Vodka Sprite throughout. Oh, we had knit too. Thats y mewe dieded. hahaha(:

Babyy has been feeling his blues these days. I'm always a suay one. Bleahs.

Started studying! yayaaa.. Only AAA laa. But at least i started k. Going back to my Partnership 2 !!

Ciao.
xoxox..

the blue mess.;
11:56 PM;

Friday, September 02, 2005

wanted to blog sth real nicee, that's fresh in my brain this afternoon. somehow, i've forgotten about the content.

work real hard in bistro jez now. but unfortunately it rained the whole day so outdoor was closed. kinda relieved. So all of us were relaxing most of the time. had part of cajun sole, and brownie ice cream.

Can u imagine? a lady complained about me today. haha. "I want to speak to your manager." Yes, i was extremely rude to her. She's damn irritating and fussy laa. Cant stand this kinda customer. luckily it was Botak. If not.. ha, bye bistro!!

Fun day today. Thou abit tiring, but still its filled with laughter and fun people.

(:

the blue mess.;
2:12 AM;

Thursday, September 01, 2005

i jez splash a half loaf garlic bread and penne primevera on the seat at bistro.

is that clumsy or clumsy?

i can't help it. ran out of bistro and cried. i dno what had came over me. Yesterday. Today. Things within me seems bottling up. i dno what is inside of me that is making me blur, block-minded and sickly that i can't even perform up to standard. Can eu imagine i really drop everything!? i jez can't believe it.

Is it tiredness? Or is it plain boredom?

i donnoe. And i have absolutely no idea. Me myself felt so confided. Seems liek im bonded by a bondage or sth that doesnt allows any breathing space for me till Crying is the only way out. Only way of releasing inner frustration and beyond words feelings. Bad for health thou. But i have no other better confiders. In fact, nobody will understand what im trying to bring across. So, wud rather keep it within myself.

Maybe its the mid life crisis? nahhh...

went towning with sze. nort rly shopping laa. went to catch a glimpse of my Aldo slip-ons again before heading work. so sweet. i cant stand it anymore. so so damn nicee laa.(: i really wanna ged it. sugar daddy anyoneee?

had a haircut fer 19bucks today at da DJ Salon. hmm, new look thou. shorter length.. but look messier. i lurve the ruggard look esp when i wax it. Bleahss... comments k.

sze is really mua sugar mummy. she treat me so many stuffs today. from the Shinlin Chix, to Thai Express Prawn Fritters and Tom Yum Talay and of course the most magnificent is the marshmallows chocolates!!! Omg.

Sze, i swear i will treat u too when ive the money kk. i really appreciate everything u did. ure jez so adorable. thanks so so much. ure liek my angel blessing me all along. if nort fer u, i would be dead of hunger.(: love ya.

stomach is growling now. betta ged to slp bef i go make sth to eat.
ciao.

the blue mess.;
1:31 AM;