BLUEmess!!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

so what if my height and weight seems inproportionate?
i still lurvee myself to core.

so what if everyone else has the best thing in lyfe, but i don't have?
well, i still lurvee myself to max.

so what if i'm ugly and every other guy or ger despise me and mock at me?
haha. i still lurvee myself.

Self-esteem is so so much important to a person. Well, at least that's how i feel. When ure esteem is low, everything in ure lyfe go straight down to the gates of Hell. You don't do things right, you don't have the ability to live ure lyfe to the fullest. Actually you have the abilities, you jez choose nort to. Like what the hell.. See how important this special component is in ure lyfe. However, if ure esteem is high, you are capable of doing things you never thought you could accomplished. example, get that guy that you really wanted.. score Ace in ure exams.. feel good, relax more blah blah blah...

Therefore people, take some tyme to be alone, rest, and reflect on how you've lead ure lyfe so far. Have you been a burden to people? Well, pick ureself up and move forward!! Have you been exceptionally upset and emotionally shaken by some important stuffs in ure lyfe? Now don't be! Learn to cherish lyfe babe/dude.

i've always lurvee reflections.. On how i lead my daily lyfes. Sometymes its exciting, at tymes it's boringg.. But its e way to improve. Owells, i hope i've improved.. Or whatever. Jez wanna live my life liek no one else did. Ya.

Back to my stupid diary again.. Went town with felicia, siyin and esther after our lessons. My main intention was to activate my cards. Hooray, liek finally!! imma able to use my Visa Mini alrdy. So nice. So happy. I lurvee myself. And we spent 2hours in Mango. it doesnt seems to be 2hrs laa. And i bought my top. i've bought liek so damn loads of stuffs ova the wkend.. Imma liek so fed up with myself alrdy.(: But no regrets. Ya. Sy got her shawl as bdae present. Fel bought her jeans at only 36bucks. And sy was burning with fire cos she bought the same jeans for 75bucks.. Ha. and esther cheated me. She's supposed to ged the Zoological Garden printing tube. And she didnt. Imma going to pluck out all her hair laa.

Went to work as usual. Baby wanted to ged his new bike.. and it cos 4K plus.. fcuk it laa. We're going to be so so poor after that. No more shopping fer the both of us. Save! Save! Save!

thanks baby for the wonderful Roxy bag. imma gedding more and more materialistic becos of you laa. eu're pampering me. But i lurve it. Smooches.

And i want my Stussy pouch soon gerls.
BooHoo.
Getting whiney here.
Back to my OM homework.

Ciao.(:
Becky.

the blue mess.;
1:55 AM;

Sunday, June 26, 2005

every misunderstanding has been cleared.. i feel much much more better now.

School sucks. everything jez sounds so silly.

went Zouk on Saturday. I have fun drinking my 2 tequila shots, one lychee martini and one jug of Vodka Redbull, and same Vodka Orange. Damn high. Nice dancing with sylvia. Great moves there.. babe.. House music is nice at Zouk. Only Zouk. And i saw Bryan!!! Hee.

Back to school week. Sianx. Projeks simply sucks to core.

the blue mess.;
11:47 PM;

Saturday, June 25, 2005

How wud eu feel when one of ure close fren bought sth u rly rly rly wanted in front of eu? Especially when eu're the one who told her the venue that sell that sth? And eu told her that eu wanna ged it first, its supposed to be a bdae gift from others.. And she replied,"Oh, this is the last piece, there's other ones." How wud u rly feel when u told her eu rly wanna buy it, first to see it, and she replied, Thats the last piece" and stick out her tongue show a :P face.. How wud eu feel?

that happens to me. That ger stole away the belt that i want. And she stuck her tongue out at me. How evil can she ged? I'm angry. I feel revengeful. But yet a part of me sympatheize with her. I feel pity for her. Lost her phone, lost her bf.. Probably that's what Heaven calls Retribution. What goes around comes around.

I hate her.

the blue mess.;
12:15 PM;

Sunday, June 19, 2005

haven been blogging for so so damn longg. heeehss. was feeling too lazie to do so laa.

pris, thanks so much fer ya concern. everything is alryte now. i love eu more than anything. pls meet me soon k. we'll go banana splitting again.(:

pass few weeks had been a hectic one. full of rocks and bumps along the way.. but i manage to overcome them all, and everything is out as a whole again. thanks alort for my friends along the way who helped me and stuffs. big huggs to them.

k, eu all sure cant guess how lazy i am in school.. knoe i din do any projek? AAA, EC.. i din even install MYOB in ma lappy. EC..i din even do a shiat. i mean fer the database i haven do anything, da assignment one i've alrdy completed..Without any help k! as in, i modify it and stuffs.. making it nicer and all.. i think it weighs 15%.. yepp.

Tutorial i also dont rly care much. jez go in class empty-handed. probably from year 1 imma alrdy liddat.. in fact my whole gang of friends are liddat! haha. what a pity. but we still ged gud grades. we go school i think fer our lunch laa. we love gedding together. i love the way we all went out fer Venezia ice cream that day, and we took peeks. a pity some of them have to go first. i really hope one day we can fix a date, no one's supposed to work on that day, no one's supposed to meet fer any projek.. no one is to meet other friends.. we shall jez have an agreement among ourselves and we shall have a girls' outing! that wud be so fun. nidd nort be grand.. prolly jez a Sakae Buffet? imma dying to have it. this tues? *pleasee...

Went liquid room on a saturday few wks ago. Rather scary. the place i thought wud be big.. but in fact it is no bigger than Hendrix. and it closes at 3am. so short! but the gud thing is saturday is ladies night, girls ged in fer free, and we don nidd to check ic. direct admission. WooHaa. but their drinks are ex. liek Fcuk.

it's a Sunday today. It's Father's Day. But imma nort gg to celebrate it.): Bleahs. owells, there's always a nxt year ryte.. alrightey. gna ask ppl to eat Sakae! cya ard.

the blue mess.;
4:28 PM;

Thursday, June 09, 2005

what's left between us are jez our memories in the past one year. we may have parted, but i knoe i will still love him.. forever.

the blue mess.;
10:45 PM;