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Sunday, March 27, 2005

today is Easter Sunday. the day Jesus resurrected. thank you Boss for taking our sins. yeahh.. caught The Eye 10. owells, this movie is jez a so-so. however, babyy and i enjoyed it really well. made us laugh liek shiat. there's this part about the guy is being possessed, then met a group of punksters. those punks thought he's trying to show off his breakdancing skills, so went to compete with him.. he's actually possessed!! damn farnie i tell you. go watch if u wanna have both effects- laughs and scary chills... yepp.

k, tmr gna be my death day. it's supposed to be macroecons EXAM. imma liek still cool, relac about it. last sem, i studied way before hand..but this tyme i squeeze everything till da last min. owells, kill me. and macro seems more harder than micro. hopefully can scrape thru.. u ged wad i mean?? Boss, help me k. help me to copy. (:

my Easter had been an enjoyable one. met zhen n nette in town fer alittle while. nette still the same old freak. hanging out with her own group.. having lotsa fun i can see.

tts it fer da day. must go back to macro now.
xoxox ..

the blue mess.;
11:12 PM;

Saturday, March 26, 2005

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jez change my blogskin. feel kinda boredd thats y. hmm went millenia walk there to study my econs. quite a fruitful tyme there. study all the way from Intro to Monetary Policy.. now left the Spore Economy. stress canss. oryte. back to study now.

the blue mess.;
9:42 PM;

it feels so great being back with babyy, holding his ever-sweaty hands, hugging his still-growing waist, kissing his forever full-of-saliva puffy lips... everything feels so in place now. no heartaches, no misses, no in nidd of desperate lurvee.

babyy forgives me. thank God. i swear i'll always think before i do anything. i kno this will be ever the last chance i am giving myself. if we're meant to be, we will.

was in town. met a few couple of ppl. firstly saw esther&her guy at da bus stop. after that met janice while crossing the road. i am pulling a damn long black face, cos of babyy. he doesnt wanna talk to me, so i was rather pissed off. okie.. saw aliff in topman. he seems to have grew a few cm. abit taller since the last tyme i saw him. he looks fine to mee. awkward tho.

happy easter day everyone. may all the blessings be on tb05, aini, zhen,ros, babyy and mee of cos. we shall have a great sunday k. nort that great afterall. cos 28 march(the next day) is macroecons paper. fcuk econs. wad a shiat module!

k. enuff. gna rest and get some slp. tmr chiong econs alrdy.
die die oso must study.
xoxox .. Becky

the blue mess.;
12:27 AM;

Friday, March 25, 2005

everything is so uncertain. continue or not to continue? i have absolutely no idea. i have no rights at all. really. i cant control him much. all power is with him. i have nothing. i jez hope he can come back to me. i rly cant afford to lose any bit of him. he's alrdy liek my life. i won want another guy. he's my everything. i kno i've never been so in love before. i jez hope everything can cool off,and we will start all ova agn.

trust. how big can this five-letta word get?

we nearly broke up because of that.

freedom. how strong the impact can this seven-letter word made?

we apparently quarrelled over that.

love. how far can people believe in this four-letter word?

and probably we're lacking in this area.

dunno la. maybee itz tyme for me to believe in palmistry that i can never have real true love in my life. worst still, no one will ever marry me. yea, itz true. i read it up. i felt so fed up. but as i grow up, itz gedding more and more accurate. what's my fate, Mr Destiny?

end of all these craps. zhen was at my house da whole of afternoon. she's liek totally hooked on yahoo games. all so lamey one. if itz liek kinda intellectual, oryte, nvmm. but all damn liek childish laaaa. she's easily satisfied.

went t chill in town for liek 1.5hours. then headed home. kinda boring day.

tmr prolly will be a better day.

the blue mess.;
1:18 AM;

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Almost There lyrics
Delta Goodrem

*featuring Brian McFadden

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

this song really portrays how i feel now. imma so devestated. i kno my answer. no matter what, i wanna marry you.

the blue mess.;
1:46 PM;

Sunday, March 20, 2005

jez watch Hostage at lido with babyy. oh boy, what a nicee movie. damn cool cans. i gimm it 5 popcorns. be it the plot, the settings, the action, the sound effect... 2 thumbs up man! it talks about family kinship Bruce Willis had. the film allows you t ged so excited in the front, after that anger, and then if eur those sentimental ones, prolly eu wud teared jez liek me. shall not fill eu guys up with full details, see for it eurself.

spent da wkends with babyy jez liek normal. it has since become a routine t me. another week to seeing babyy again. what's worst is next week imma gna have ma final year 1 examinations. big thing isnt it? but how cool is that? imma going on yr2 when next term starts. yeah.. so nice ryte.. turning 18 and stuffs liddat.. how nice is that?

i lurve growing upp. what about eu? since primary school to secondary and now in polytechnic.. now looking back, it jez seems liek i've gone a long way. soon after, prolly another 6-7 years' tyme, gna find a partner, settle down..and bang! sooner or later, eu may find people calling you "AUNTIE". man, i hate that word. but thats part and parcel of growing upp, i guess, or in other words, growing OLD. altho i hate to admit that somtymes, but truely, tyme is passing by liek a blink of an eye.

if eu ask me whether i am scared of death, owells, seriously i do. i dno why. i used to not fear death. i used to keep asking God, when is the tyme i'm supposed to meet him.. but now i have a totally changed of mindset. prolly cos my world does not only revolve around God.. but now i have so much things not yet done. ma world revolves around azhar, lizhen, aini, ma familyy... cant afford to leave em alonee.

owells, i dno why i wanna talk about this. prolly i did so much of soul-searching these days. orytee. gna slp now. tmr have t wake up early.

ciao.
xoxox

the blue mess.;
11:34 PM;

Thursday, March 17, 2005

went skwel in the morn ystd fer macro tutorial n IAC projek. finally, end of all projeks!! now da main concern is our wrytten exam. imma gg t study very very hard. i swear k. hopefully can go on to poly yr2 with flying marks.(: owells, after that meet upp with lizhen. we went swimming. liek urrgh, the sun wasnt that strg. we're all bastard! so we arent that tanned yet. hrmm, bought nette her bday present. i personally liek that bracelet damn much laa. hope she can treasure it.

we tried our best. we rly tried. i guess tyme passed too fast. its hard t catch upp alrdy. its hard t bring eu baq too. imma sho afraid that's the end of everything. end of us. end of the book. none of us wanna this way, rly. its ok tho. b'cos at least i got her. eu got no one. all da best t eu.(:

after that we went far east t mit upp with nette pass her present. gimm her a chance t say thank you, then we ciao alrdy. went home laa. babyy wasn't very happy the other day when i stay out late with sze n gang. so yupps. baq hme early. i hope nette rmbs our birthday this year... liek finally...?

had a gr8 tyme with zhen. imma da B1, she's da B2. so funnie la. yes, there's gna be no B3. never ever. so anw she psycho me t buy this pair of pointed shoes. i liek it. its nicee. but somehow i feel so regretful n guilty. imma supposed t find a pair of Vans shoes. but ma selfish nature says..that can wait.. ged this first. owells, luckily its on sale. so 19bucks fer that pair, cheap? dno laa. jez bought it. hopefully i can wear it our t club or pub? haha. can match with ma 10bucks dress also maa. ryte? see! hahahaha.

so yaa. i skip macro lect. was supposed t go fer make-up or sth. i skip that too. decide t be a bitch this tyme. ltr then photocopy from em.

i miss ma babyy alort. hopefully can meet him this weekend. lets pray hard he don't need t go johore. then after werk i can stay ova at his hse agn. yeah, that'll be the nicest thg on earth. to love and to be loved...

owells, somtyms i feel that ma lyfe is so boringg. everyday i see my polyfrens, they seems so busy with their plans after sch. and after that when i reflect on myself, i feel so much independent laa. not much activities after sch osoo. there are also tymes i feel so much liek a bitch laa. imma acherlie angree with ma fwends who always meet upp with their bf. that anger is not that kind of anger ged wad i mean? liek jealousy anger kinda la. how i wish i oso can meet upp my bf daily that kinda mentality. but seeing them quarrelling also quite bad. so acherlie meeting everyday isn't a gud thg too. hope they are all fine now.

orytey. gna end now. ciao
xoxox

the blue mess.;
12:57 PM;

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

You Are 20 Years Old

20

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/">What Age Do You Act?

the blue mess.;
12:46 PM;

Monday, March 14, 2005

had a catch-up with liyana tdy. went out with yana and aini. i tout we culd go acid bar t have a look or sth. but nope. we din go in the end. reach baq home rather early tdy. oh, poa got sales la. bought a dress at 10bucks. so fun. so cheap too. nette bdae tdy. HAPPY BDAE! feelg so bored. got no moneyy. i wanna find a new job. went t indochine. dey nidd ppl. so prolly i'll go baq ere agn for interview. seems rather fun werking dwn ere. oryte. i wanna go study abit of bca. ciao. xoxox..

the blue mess.;
9:53 PM;

stayover at babyy's place ova da weekend. so cool ryte? his family went t johore fer visitation. quite fun. we watch Son of the Mask. he bought that vcd, 3 for 10bucks that kind. so rather blurr blurr. its a must-watch. damn funny i swear. cook for him, wash-up. stuffs liddat. feel so much liek a housewife tho. but fun la, being his maid fer da wkend. we intended t go swim in da morn. that stupid pidhead sleep liek a log. say too tired t swim. in d end i brought ma swimming stuffs dno fer wad. waste ma tyme only.
oryte. afternoon we went outta town. catch Boogeyman. oh man, that bloody show. pls refrain urself from watching. its a lamey show. but if u think u feel damn rich, no place else t flaw ure wealth, owells, then go ahead. this show rly liek wasted ma moneyy. so angree. babby and i were cursing tht show. k. enuff of that. only nidd t go back t sch on tues n wed. feels damn gud aint it? that also means exams r round da corner.
tired oryte. nidda sleep now. ciao. out.

xoxox .. Beck

the blue mess.;
12:12 AM;

Saturday, March 12, 2005

was jez feelg bored, so i roam ard in other people's blog. came to this 2 quizzes she put up. so i tried. hrmm, rather true i felt. linkkies r below. ged to da webby and tried k. whether ure an angel or not. and which alcoholic drink are eu? try em'.

Vodka

Vodka

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
brought to you by

xoxox

the blue mess.;
12:47 PM;

Hang on a sec! You're not an angel! You're a
goddess! Always the leader in your group of
friends you are the one to go to in a crisis,
your advice is valuable if you give it out,
which is only if you feel people deserve it. Go
you!

Which natural angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!)
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imma a goddess!
xoxox

the blue mess.;
12:33 PM;

Friday, March 11, 2005

i simply lurvee Lindsay Lohan
i can't love any other girls more than her
if only i got the chance to meet up
first question i'll ask her is
how did eu manage t lose weight
so cool isn't
she's only one year older than me
how can that be possible
simply go nuts about her
i wanna be liek her
whatever
her songs are nicee too
hot bod
wilmer valderrama is one lucky chap
but i wonder are dey still tgt
xoxox .. BC
(attached below. lyrics- Rumors by LL)

the blue mess.;
8:15 PM;

Rumours
Lindsay Lohan
xoxox .. LL

Saturday steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound
But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having funI'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)
What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

the blue mess.;
8:05 PM;

Thursday, March 10, 2005

skwel start at 2pm today but i wake up early to finish up my part for iac spies r us projek
i feel so hardwerking today jez did my booking for werk ystd
imma forced to work on sat la stupid ritz carlton
and imma alone la werk alone aini cant werk lizhen doesnt wanna werk on sat
faithful servant ma so i have to suffer
missing babyy so much one week only ged to meet him once u kno
tts a very sad case owells whatever
gna werk tdy serious case deprive of moneyy
wanna ged that 1. either that west top or esprit frog top
2. a coin purse
3. a make-up pouch
4. ripcurl slippers
5. skirts
6. pants
7. brown blazer
8. a shell necklace
9. a purple tee
10. a handheld bag
ese are mua great 9wants. hopefully i can ged. but till now, haven see any cute or nice wants
so shall save mua moneyy first. then see how la.
okie shall go rest awhile den ged ready fer schh
sch sucks rytee yeahh
ciao

the blue mess.;
11:07 PM;

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

imma sho pissed off
i keep wanting to talk t him but babyy is liek so hecked up and stuffs
he dunch even care wanna cry but no tears come out of ma eyes
owells somtyms i jez hate him rly
wcom final exam is finally over
i crapped thru da entire paper
i nvr rly bother abt ma grammer or sentence fragment i jez wryte and wryte and wyrte
so stupidd larhh
hopefully i can scrape thru da paper, hopefully dose projeks and small assignments can help me earn some patheic marks ged liek a B?
i seriously nidd t go on a diet soon gedding outta hand soon
detox. rly nidd a gud detox diet mans anorexic?
was watching da news jez now
damn sadd fer da 4yrs old gerl who has passed away
in fact all her family members died
her dad committed sucide
i believe he killed his wife and children first
and its all because of gambling
worse is they are christians
thats wadd imma sadd about
rly feel so sorry for da family
hopefully their close relatives can ged this ova soon
may God be with them
did da bca quiz tday
hahahahahhaha it was a disaster man
i think i can at most only ged 1 out of 5 marks?
so miserable rytee owells nvmm la
didnt study bca also maa
cant blame anyonee or anyhoos
met zhen upp fer dinner at thomson plaza
had burger king ma 2bucks is still with her
ooi betta return me hor
imma gg bankrupt soon bleahs
had a gr8 diner walk ard wanted t ged this halter from watson cheap cheap only 8bucks
but think ova it liek nort worth it i got more things i nidd to ged
liek ma tee.. slippers.. yeah. means i nidd more monee
finally tmrr we gna hand in da mgmt projek
another one down left da spies r us
nidd t do alrdyyy
hopefully by one day we can finish it
hopefully laaa
haze has been rather thick these days
*cough cough
nidd t werk alot alot
nidd to study liek shiat again
yeahh 3 more weeks
bye year 1, hie year 2
exciting
k gna stop here
wanna flip thru ma econs notes fer tmr tutorial
ciao

the blue mess.;
10:41 PM;

Monday, March 07, 2005

wcom exam is tmr
damn stupidd imma liek still nort in the mood fer exam yet la
den suddenly pop out one wrytten communications exam
3 compulsory questions within 2hrs
6 reports and 4 formats if imma nort wrongg
i feel so much liek a robot
humph ehhh
owells met babyy up fer da weekend
catch Hitch on sunday at lido
had thousand leaves from coffee bean its liek a ferrero rocher kinda chocolate cake
nice i swear and Hitch is damn hilarious will smith is damn funny larhhs
babyy laughs his ass off la liek wadda hell ryte hahahhahaha
he always do that ima used to it
so babyy saw this cap that he lurves and i saw this rip curl slippers that is so damn comfy
19bucks rly considering whether t ged it or nort
cos anw i jez got mua addidas slingy so nicee cant help it but hug it to sleep la
so ya see how larhhs whether i got extra cashh
wanna ged a full tyme job jez for the hols la
babyy werking also so might as well i got an one-month full tyme job ryte
but where can findd? any lobanggs?
nvmm shall keep on searching
saturday had a great hangout with ma sweety pie aini
wud love to meet her up again soon yaa sweety
oryte shall contd with my revision fer ma wcom
ciao

the blue mess.;
11:58 PM;

Thursday, March 03, 2005

in skwel waiting fe da tyme to pass now
werking at ritz later
eating sour plum and drinking plain water
no reason. jez feel liek souring my mouth
yucks..its damn sour i swear.

the chalet is more or less confirm
jez fer a few people here and there
liek felicia, shuting& gang and of course the guys
a big bunch of troublesome lot
quite cheap la the chalet- if 17 of us all go.. we only nidd to pay liek 6bucks
cheap ryte? plus we made our own bbq pit.
according to faezah we can.. ya.
so imma happy. at least i got sumthing to look forward to after the exams

year 2 in business studies is waving to me
welcoming me imma so excited cant wait to get myself a diploma
as well as a full tyme marketing job
everything in the future seems so blurr la
but i kno i will do well

ciao

the blue mess.;
3:50 PM;

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

liek finally? i got to shop around town with my gerlo - aini dear
i've been having this urge fer liek weeks or months i culdnt rmb
so at last i did that
bought quite alort of stuffs jez bought this fabulous earrings
i thought it's fabulous dno e others feel laaa
oso bought that nicee polo tee from giordano
hrmm how shall i bring that style out???
dnoo laaa. jez wear only laa.
owells alort of ma fwends got back their results liek on monday
to some : congratulationss.!
to few : my condolences..
hahahahha no i dunch mean to be funny or what
looking at em nort knoing shld they go into ite liek hurts me laa
i wun encourage ite of cos i really think its the end unlessssss
you really am interested in ure work, and u promised that u will study
so yarhh choice is urss
these days have been feeling so brand-conscious
wanna ged a bag from LV so much
and ive been so trend-conscious as well
arrghh whats becoming of me siaa

"if the person who made you cry is the person who can stop your tears,then why did he hurt you in the first place? nobody can love you more than the one who created you, a little bit more love is all i ask for, but the world is too selfish to entertain such demand "

this paragraph is adopted from siyin's blog. i find it quite meaningful. its so true.. who can love you more than the one who created you? who can stop those tears?? apparently is that significant one who had started those strings of tears. guys, back off.

neck hurts so much
alrytee imma going to bedd
so tired man
ciao

the blue mess.;
1:16 AM;