BLUEmess!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

My heart only fought for what it wanted. Now my heart is having to fight to let him go.
Now that I have loved so purely and deeply,I have realized how lonely I really am.

Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go.
You have to forgive to forget,and forget, to feel again.

Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

Don't say we're not right for each other,
the way I see it,
we're not meant for anyone else.

Nobody said it was easy;
it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy...
no one ever said it would be this hard.

the blue mess.;
6:50 PM;

Monday, September 01, 2008

i jsut love driving la. know you can go whereever you want, need not worry about cabfare and you can be at anywhere you want to be at anytime. these few weeks i have been renting car to play with. it has been 2 years ever since i passed my TP, and recently i just gained back the confidence to drive. 1st car was Suzuki Swift, and recently drove Honda Fit. Really like the feel of Honda Fit... Urgh!! i want to own a car. Damn.

Anyway, i finally made up my mind to do Lasik surgery. the operation date will be on 24 Sept 08. so excited...can't wait to have purrffeeeccctttt eyesight!!

:) love.

the blue mess.;
1:16 AM;

Sunday, August 24, 2008

OWELLS. 2 yrs 6 months' relationship with Him, all over. singlehood awaits. Am i really enjoying? Or have I been deceiving myself? Do I really want freedom/singlehood, rather than a stability life? Can I have both joy and happiness? i don't really think it is possible.

From one 'A', to another 'A' - long process i must say, getting to know someone all over again, getting closer to him, understand him, live with him... and knowing that at the end of it, we're still going seperate ways. it is hard, truly hard. but what's the matter when there's no trust at the end of it?

mum told me something: in every relationship, don't put in your heart & soul. only when you know he is really the one, going all out in this relationship is not too late.

this maybe true to a certain extent. if you dont contribute, how will you know the end result? Sighs. even if i regretted it now, things will stay like this and nothing more than that. IT'S ALL OVER.

anyway, i have tendered my resignation to my current company. i am moving off to a whole new challenge and a job role which i never thought that i am going to undertake. but still it happens in the end. Thou job security is very low there, but no risk no gain what... Try try lor. And i guess i needed a new environment to get over the big trauma. Hope all my colleagues can understand this.

Some misses...

That wraps up our love for the past 2 yrs plus.

i will always miss you and love you.

the blue mess.;
8:43 PM;

Friday, June 06, 2008

i have 1 good news & 1 bad news to share. Which one you wanna hear first?

K, let's start with the good news first. i have finally bought my Coach bag. i am really loving it. Thanks to Zhen, Syl, Nette, Mon & Fong. Thanks for the big birthday gift. i still have leftover monies, so still thinking how to use it. Maybe get myself another bag or maybe perfume which i have yet to decide which one. Hmm..

Now, the bad news. Sorry my ladies: i forgot to buy things for you all from Bangkok. *guilty*

Seriously, i can't find anything nice. i am really thoughtful cans - i wanted to buy puppies back for you all. but you know la Singapore laws, hence i can't. I wanted to buy clothes - then again i think you gals have more clothes than i do. i wanted to buy u gals accessories too - AGAIN, you know it yourself that you all have more accessories than you actually require, so for what?! And And AND, i wanted to buy a Thailand handsome guy back for you, but hor, My taste, you Fancy ma? :) So in the end, forget it. Don't blame me. Blame on the fact that we have different preferences!

Bangkok was fine. Don't feel like coming back. But i tell you, i hate ChatuChak! So warm, so many things and none looks nice & pretty in my eyes. i just bought 1 tee, few keychains & a pair of shorts there. Seriously, i prefer Suan Lum night bazaar. More focused. Bought a MAN UTD polo from a shopping mall and a few tees from Factory Outlet. my loss was quite minimum however it was an eye opener. Their temples are gold-plated and i went to visit a very famous Thai monk. These are some activities you will never experience in Singapore.

And Zhen: i bought an ED HARDY tee shirt. i live up to my name! hehe.

the blue mess.;
1:46 AM;

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Recently so many things happen at work, it is really getting out of hand.

To stay, or to leave?? That is the critical question the girls have been asking each other at work.

it has been getting so tough to work there, especially with the people - Good & Bad. i often tell myself that this might not be the worst i will meet in my whole career journey, but i really dont wish the worst to come!! have sent out a few resumes to prospective employers, but yet no replies. am feeling so desperate and can someone please tell me what to do? but nett nett, if salary increases, i 80% will stay on. but, who will stay on with me?

coming to the last paper of this semester already, and straight after my paper, i will be going MOS with my colleagues. so long since i last club, i am already feeling so excited as i talk about it!! but sadly none of my friends are going MOS on friday.

que sera sera, whatever will be, will be.

:))

the blue mess.;
9:07 AM;

Sunday, April 20, 2008

I am so loving Sam Lee. a.k.a Li Sheng Jie. Especially this Song, Cha Jian Er Guo. Listen to it. you won't regret.

the blue mess.;
4:56 PM;

MR, this song is for you. Pay attention to the lyrics. :))

the blue mess.;
5:11 AM;

Saturday, April 19, 2008

this is really a boring weekend. i have HROD test on Monday, which means weekend is burnt. And ER exam on Friday, which also implies my whole of next week is burnt too. and i am having this very sickening flu - tons of sticky sticky whitish grossly tissues lingering in my nasal passage.

Seriously, i am very very sian of studying le. i don't understand why. Probably i just don't feel the urgency as yet. haha. Sunday den panick la!!

i really wish to watch the movie with you... Maybe what you say is true. I am destined to disappoint you in ur entire life..

Drowsy, drowsy..

the blue mess.;
2:52 AM;